Lonely

I have really been struggling with the feeling of loneliness these past couple of weeks. It's been a much more drastic change coming here then I thought it would be. Kyle's new job has him working a lot more (which is not bad, yet still is not fun.) He has been gone away from me more in these past three months then since we first got married back in July. He has to work nights, be gone for different courses or training, work through lunches. Like, starting on Monday he starts a month and a half long course which is located on a camp about an hour away. So, there are probably nights where he will just stay in the barracks on that camp instead of drive all the way back home just to get up in the morning and drive back. After his course is over is when I return to the states, so there's another long period where we won't be together. And today, he has duty so I won't see him until tomorrow morning. So, another night spent without my husband. 

I understand he's in the Marines and it's not his choice to work these hours, I guess it's just been really hard for me to get used to. And not only are there nights where he's gone, there are other times where extra curricular activities might occur for work (which aren't necessarily mandatory) which will pull him away from home. So, it's been tough for me to get used to. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with it! I'm sure it's just my selfish sin nature that wants him home all the time with me.  

It's been hard because I've kind of been in limbo. I go back to the states in a month and a half, so I've not wanted to start a job or volunteer anywhere just to leave soon after I start my new position. We have been attending a church with good people who have been very welcoming. It has been good getting to know the women. It's also hard because the church is about 45 minutes away without traffic. And a lot of the members live that way. I try to find things to keep myself busy during the day and nights when he has to work. But after a while, being in a house all by myself just gets lonely. I like to drive around and explore, but at the same time, it's not as fun doing it by myself. 

I know this sounds like a huge pity party, I guess I just covet your prayers. I know there are women in worse situations than me. Maybe their husband is deployed for a long time, or they are always gone. I really don't have anything to complain about. I am proud of Kyle for the work he does and am thankful for the awesome opportunities that we have been able to experience. 

Miss you all!