I am IN LOVE! Yes, with my husband... but also with this unborn child. I guess it's just now hitting me how much I cannot wait to hold and love on my baby. Lately I have been feeling very emotional- especially about anything concerning the baby. To the point that I have been somewhat irritable. Poor Kyle. I am so thankful for a patient husband though! It's amazing how God instilled in the woman the whole "motherly instinct." Of course, before getting pregnant, I really wasn't in touch with that whole side of me. But now that I am seeing the weight of responsibility that God is giving me regarding this child, sometimes I feel overwhelmed. I realize as Isaiah's mom I will carry the weight of knowing I am responsible for teaching him in the ways of the Lord and that his salvation and spiritual welfare are of utmost priority when it comes to his upbringing. It already pains me to think that this child will have to go through different hurts and trials. First and foremost, I have realized that this child is not mine. He does not belong to me or Kyle. God is just loaning him to us. Isaiah belongs to our heavenly Father. And God being the gracious giver of all things, is giving me the opportunity to be the mother of this child- to raise him in a way that is pleasing to the Lord. WOW. What a privilege, yet scary feeling all at the same time! I realize I will mess up and there will be times where I will feel lost and don't know what to do. Thankfully, I don't have to do it on my own. I have a wonderful husband by my side and a loving Father who will give me the strength to do my job as a mom. I also know that God does not give us more than we can handle. (1 Cor. 10:13) Though I may sound a little nervous right now, I am so looking forward to this exciting time in our lives!! :)
I receive a weekly email from the hospital that shows pictures and states facts about whatever week you are in. (I'm 30 weeks and will be 31 wks tomorrow!) They sent this picture and stated that: my baby rivals a good-size cabbage in weight, tipping the scales this week at 3 pounds. (Length: about 15 3/4 inches, head to heel.)
Here I am at 30 wks carrying my head of cabbage!
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You know, Joy, the biggest thing that David and I prayed for was wisdom on how to raise our sons. We marvel now when we look back at how God had answered that prayer, even when we didn't think we had ANY wisdom. God is faithful and will guide you and Kyle as you seek him. We pray for you guys to have the wisdom of God!
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